Several years ago, I went to a store and hanging desperately
onto what the Lord was telling me, I bought a journal.
I walked home and sat at the desk in my dorm room and pulled
it out. Opening the pages I began to write. I began to actively believe that
the Lord knew what He was doing and that I was choosing to trust Him, with
tears of surrender I began to believe that He was able to do so much more than
I could dream. Let me tell you friend, He delivered on that promise.
I started a journal full of letters to my future husband.
I chose to let go that day and push away those feelings of
doubt,
those feelings of its never going to happen to me,
no one could ever
love me enough to marry me.
There aren't any godly guys around me here in this
place, Lord.
I chose to ignore the advice of media saying go after the guy you like,
go and tell him you like him and initiate.
I knew there had to be a better way
than that.
A friend had once shared with me that she had surrendered
the pen of her love life to the Lord, to do with it what He saw fit.
And I had
believed that I had done the same.
But I realised that in not trusting Him to
follow through, I was not actively believing Him. I doubted that the Lord knew
my heart and who I would want for a husband someday.
So buying a journal and believing
I would one day give it to the man He had for me, I knew I was trusting Him.
I
was surrendering my love life to God through this process.
That journal became so precious. Whenever I wanted to pray
for my future husband or felt discontent with him not being in my life yet, I
wrote.
I filled the pages with dreams and prayers, writing on birthdays and other
days I wanted to share with him.
Sharing those intimate details that I longed
to share as I watched other couples being intimate with each other.
Sometimes I
had a lot to say and other times months would go by before I would open its
pages.
Over time the Lord did bring a man into my life, and those
letters started having him in mind as I wrote them. While being cautious with
our conversations getting ahead of where we were at in our relationship,
whenever I wanted to pray or share my dreams on where our relationship was
heading, I wrote in that book.
I continued to trust the Lord to write the story
He had started in His way....refusing to jump ahead now that this man was in my
life.
I filled it
completely just before we got married.
On our wedding night, I handed my husband the journal and
told him it was his.
All those prayers and dreams were for him.
I gave him my
whole heart when I handed him that journal.
All the details and memories about
myself I couldn't put into words to share on that night. And he read through
them all in the days that followed.
I won’t share the intimate details hidden within the pages
of that journal, because those letters were for His eyes only. Filled with
promises I felt the Lord had for me, for us as a couple and dreams of things in
the future.
I share these things to encourage you single ladies!!! To
share with you how the Lord wrote that beautiful story in my life and blessed
me through it.
How those of us who wait don’t just end up all alone with no one
while others get married. I want to encourage you girls, because I have been
where you are.
I have known the loneliness and the feelings of discontentment.
I share this to share how God revealed to me how I could trust Him through
those times.
The Lord protected me from revealing too much of myself to
guys by nudging me to write to my future husband instead, He allowed me to
record those memories within its pages to share with my husband someday.
My
husband still reads those letters to this day.
And friend, I want to encourage you to do the same.
A sweet bible study leader in high school sat a group of us
down one evening and shared with us how she journalled her walk with the Lord. As
she spoke of being able to look back in hard times and see how the Lord
answered prayers, she revealed how often we don’t notice how prayers are
answered, we forget about what we prayed and how He spoke. But when we take the
time to record our prayers in a journal, we can reread things we prayed for and
know how the Lord heard us! It is so encouraging in those moments when we don’t
even feel we have faith the size of a mustard seed. She blessed each one of us
in that group that evening and gave us each a journal in which to record our
prayers and journeys with the Lord. To encourage us and to give us proof of His
faithfulness in those moments of trial.
Today, I want to bless you guys in the same way.
I partnered with friends over at Paper Coterie in this last
week and they want to give each of you a free journal.
I would love for each of
you to receive a journal of choice from their beautiful collection and start
your own journal.
Maybe it will be full of letters to your future husband as
you wait for Him.
Or even a journal recording a difficult year of your life.
Maybe even just a journal to record the mundane events you
feel are taking place.
But I pray that through this journaling process, you will
see God clearly.
You will see how He does answer when we think He hasn't heard
us.
That you will be able to look back in hard times and know how He carried
you through that dark valley. May you cling to His promises and not forget.
Today I am thankful//for journaling.
Much Love,
L
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